Alone...sick...bored...and awake at 6 in the morning on a Friday...that sucks...big time.
I got bored with my normal stuff...trying to put myself to sleep by listening to music...texted a few people...they all went to bed. I'm disgruntled...edgy...annoyed...
I am waiting for the right guy to come along because I looked for two long lonely years...nothing but an ass who cheated on me with a 27 year old mother of two...tells you how I am, I suppose...can't keep the interest of an 18 year old...
Maybe I am just putting myself down too often...I don't know...
Sometimes I wonder what it would be like to be loved by a guy truly. I haven't had much dating experience...because no one really interests me...I like to think too much, worry about problems that don't exist...
I watch as things grow...I find myself liking the guy more with each passing day...then, he does something to fuck it up. My first boyfriend was innocent...I had to move...the second...wanted my sister...
Third? Ha! Cheated on me with three girls...and left me for my best friend...who cheated on him, twice.
Fourth? Yeah...the asshole who cheated on me with a Mom.
So...I'm sitting here...listening to a playlist I happened across...I rather like it...some songs I've never heard...pretty good stuff.
I want a guy to chase away the doubts in my mind. I want a guy who can walk up to him and continually sweep me off my feet by showing me just how much he cares. It seems love is pretty much dead...I can't seem to find a shred of it...maybe I am just kidding myself? I don't know..
Guess I can always become a hermit...hide from the world in the mountains some where...maybe Alaska...That would be pretty amusing.
Eh...Close for now. I'll be surprised if anyone reads this.
Just a work of my random moods, odd happenings, and collection of short stories. Rants, raves, bullshit...it all comes together in this. Hope you enjoy it.
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