I've been here a little short of two years and the crap I've been through is beyond belief.
I first started with a guy that wanted to look like he knew what was doing on at all time. He was buddy with all the right people and very, very lazy. He made himself appear to be busy and basically just barked orders from his cube. He was no my superviser or above me in any way, but he sure tried to act like it. He tried to get many people fired and would do whatever he could to make himself look good and you bad. He had a folder in his desk labelled "Bad Laura" and kept every mistake he ever saw me make. He had a heart attack and died, I'm serious. Kharma/karma whatever, but he died.
Then it seemed to quiet down for a little bit. Really it did, the calm at the beginning of a storm you'd say. No real manager in my office and when the manager is away the men will play. They did things unprofessionally, told gross jokes, but in general were harmless. Three of these idiots believed it to be in good taste to harrass me and then two were quickly gone. I'm thinking, lots of turn over, but at least I am going to be alright. All the people that were real issues are gone.
New manager, new expectations. Yay, it's nice to finally have a manager. I get excited thinking about it. A manager, woo hoo! Someone to make these guys behave a little more (I don't expect gentlemen). I get a new supervisor after grumblings from my teammates about how he is horrible to work with. He seems just fine at first. Really, he seems to want to help my department grow and add business. It happens suddenly and without notice. This nice guy because the biggest douche in the entire planet. Steals and blames you. Yes, I do mean literally steals. Gets a new contract in (yay!) and then gets us all into trouble because he got it illegally and another vendor is being paid for the work we're doing, not us. He manages to get out of doing work, but knows the system long enough to be able to make himself look really busy. He spends time "monitoring" my peers and I then sends emails off like my AP English teacher, just dripping in red ink. I'm kinda waiting for my kharma/karma on this one.
This is seriously the worst job I've ever had. I am almost hoping they lay me off because then I might see sunshine out of this hell. I am thinking a pay decrease but my sanity back are going to be an equal trade.
I am also sick of doing the following things:
1. Being bummed out, every single day.
2. The head aches. I get a head ache exactly 3 blocks from my job. No kidding, it's like clock work. I've never had a problem with head aches before.
3. Stress and being pissed off means I don't eat regularly. Earlier my tea (yes tea!) was making me sick to my stomach. Anything above water tends to do that.
4. I have an urge to hit something over and over again.
5. My blood pressure is seriously through the damn roof.
6. I bitch ENTIRELY to much to my friends, family and pretty much anyone that will listen. I might talk to the bum down the street if he'd listen.
7. I loathe pulling up to work and there is a ball at the bottom of my stomach every time I even think about work. It dominates my thoughts so much that I don't sleep well.
In conclusion, my job totally sucks. I mean sucks the big one. I want my damn sanity back. If you ask nicely I might even tell you where I work.
KTT Laura