Its Friday night and I sit here alone, cold, sad but why??? I have numerous friends but no one to hang out with. So I lost my phone a week ago and lost all my numbers, so I went and bought a new one. THe only person that has called is work and my mom how sad is that. Ihave been without a car for about a month and a half which has sucked, but what ever my little beetle blew up sad. SO now I am here I could take a cab out to somewhere and drink and talk to the same old people til I get to the point where it makes me feel better then come home to pass out. Sounds exciting huh the story of my life. Most of the bar scene is all fake people saying the same old thing, as you walk around being judged by everyone and there supposed perfect lives. But the thing is we all go out to get away from our lives, push everything aside put on that fake smile and act everything is alright. Drink the pain away talk to the people we despise because sadly they are the ones that listen. The people that walk around who think they are better than everyone else and talk to you to make you feel like someone actually cares. When your supposed friends all walk away to get high, take a pill, or snort something, and I am left there the no druggy freak show (which I dont mind). Why are things this way, why has our community grown to this. Maybe I should do drugs it would keep all the pain away til the next pill or snort. Get to that skinny figure I have always wanted and be as fake as the rest of them, well I should say most of them. Well Im tired of being a sap tonight. Let me know if there is anyone else that feels this way..... I will answer anyone whocomments, more blogs to come... thanks for reading..
Hey there,
My name is james I just moved here from Portland Oregon and i know exactly how you feel. It's sad but true. I'm gay so of course my story is a little different. But all in the same I'm looking to meet REAL people. Jamers_2383@yahoo.com
Peace. Wow sounds like you need to let it all out. I can understand everything you described. I'm sure many many people know exactly what you're talking. Wanna talk? Hope you're having a happy holiday.
sorry you are going through such a difficult time. have things improved in these past weeks? i think everyone at some point in their lives feel as you do.
You're so right about the bar scenne sometimes i get tired of that we only to meet someone thats real such as urself that would be nice for a change Good luck babe skittles out
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