Well, things have started looking up a little bit. Jason actually did give me $100 to put toward my rent. I think he should do that a couple more time if you ask me, but I'm sure he won't. Christmas is going to be very slim this year for my kids and non-existant for me, but it could be worse. I still have a place to stay and a car that gets me from A to B. I've been asked out more in the last week than my whole life I think. Maybe because I'm not interested in dating or even talking to anybody right now. Isn't it strange how that works? If you're looking you can never find it and if you're not looking it drops in your lap. Oh well, it def helps out my self esteem which is always a good thing. I hope I can get over the fact that I gave myself to someone who never appreciated it and obviously never wanted it. I hope it doesn't affect my future relationships, when and if I decide to do it again. I don't think he was able to give me a part of himself that I feel I deserved. I don't think he'll ever give it to anybody. I feel sorry for him in that way. He will never know love because he will never let himself get close enough to anyone to know how it feels. Enough about him! My birthday is coming up Sunday and as of now there are quite a few people going out with me this weekend. It's going to be so fun! I can't wait. I was going out this past weekend, but my son got sick so I spent my free weekend at home giving him medicine. Oh well, one of the joys of being a mother. HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!! :)
Sassy Ass Bitch