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What Is and Never Was
Maybe you never will wonder but if you do, I want you to know I loved you best,
I tried so completely hard although I feel as if I failed every test,
I loved you then I love you still,
I loved you even against my will,
What scars do you need to see, what pain will make it all be ok,
When I said I loved you I meant it, I realize for you it was just words to say,
When does this end, this hurt this endless agony,
Did you ever realize what you meant to me,
The soft kisses the way I held you close to my heart in my beating chest,
I will tell you again, I swear with my hand to God I loved you best,
Time was of the essence, so I tried so hard in every single way,
But the difference is I still love you at the end of my day,
I lie without you, knowing you should still be wrapped in my arms,
Yet I wasn't as cute as him, and I did not have his charms,
Have you ever looked in your heart, was I ever really there,
Looking at life trying to be so optimistic, yet I lie for the sake of love but never really care,
I miss you if you ever took the time to ask those who knew me best you would know,
To have you back for just a second I feel as I would see my soul,
I can say, and now I mean it, I hope you are happy, and I hope that you're in love and free,
Yet I cannot help but to wonder if you ever think of me,
I wish I could rewind time or maybe just undo the past,
I promise if I could I would create something that would truly last,
What Is and Never Was,
Charlie
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Time Whithered Man....
I wish I would have known right there at first,
What made me feel so sad what made me feel so blue,
I looked everywhere inside of my heart for what caused my pain,
Never would I have seen that the casue and reason was you,
I tried to love you, I put forth all a man could give to love you completely and true,
Now as the fog has seemed to clear, I realize I didn't fail because of my mistakes, I failed because of your lack to really care,
I sift through the memories they are ash, and the wind tends to blow them around,
So I am sorry if I cannot see the pictures so clearly, and I now wear this endless frown.
I have tried to love, and I try and try again,
Yet I find the same conclusion, a kiss on the cheek, and your such a good friend,
Friends? Good great! could alway use another, but I am so withering away!
I have my own agenda, so much to give, and yet so much to give away.
I wanna love again, but each time I feel myself lean just a little that way your face comes to mind and gets in the way
Leave me, I beg you my memeory too,
I believe we would both be better off without you,
I tried to drink yo away I smoked once till three,
looked in my head and you were still right there with me,
I try and love you not, but I realize I love you still,
Without you I look for simply time to kill,
I tried not to love you, I tried not to fall so quick,
with my foot constantly in my mouth its so hard not to look like a dick,
I wish I was funny, or else you were easily amused,
I feel lost all alone and again I am so confused...
You like me?
YOu like me not?
Am I just a character in the book called you? Am I just a small part of your plot?
So many questions, so little time, still hating myself for wishing you were mine.
I see your smile, I loved seeing the happiness, in your face,
Now I am left with memories I cannot seem to replace.
Damn is this it, it has to be this way?
!8 tracks on my new cd, and every one seemed to speak ypour name...
I will leave you...you win, I will, "own my mistakes," but I got potential....
Somebody will love me, and you will still be all alone, not tonight,
but again...
and that is just simply ok with me, and someone will tell me, and life will go on,
I will stay in touch after all I am your biggest fan,
Sadly though I am still your time withered man!
Ok wrote this just a few short words...if anyone reads comment cause who recieved it wasnt impressed....
Your beautiful blue eyes, and the countless tears that you have cried, I know I am not that guy who caused such pain, yet some where I felt you and for every one in common a piece of me died, I dont know the connection, but you knew me right from the start, maybe it was this life we were destined to be apart, but I feel u speaking to me in such an unspeakable way, do you believe in non-common americanism, or thats just what u say? I know your heart is pure, as the sands of time..I knew when I seen you, you were meant to be mine, What do I say, how must I remind, our names written in the center of time, romeo, juliet, one touch of your lips I could never forget, words are cheap but love seems today never true, I wish you could just see me, cause I constanly look at you, you could
bobby parker: love me not or love me still, dont waste my time, I am not just time to kill!!!
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Kareykissessweet
tue nov 10 2009
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I believe you are blessed to be able to put your feelings and thoughts down on paper, as well as into words that speak truth and conviction. I have felt like that but me being a woman its even harder because its our venus nature too. But today I realized something that while my feelings of putting myself down had been haunting me and telling me that it was my fault and why... really turned out to be that he was guilty and he was too blame not me. SO i am healed for now and moving on, SO i do identify with you completely. |
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I could be yours if only your true,
Far Away Angel
There is not a limit on the ways I could fall in love with you,
I want to hold you close and hold you tight,
I wish you were here with me tonight,
I know your there, as sure as the moon and the stars,
I look for you in the strangers face in the passing cars,
Life is short, rocky, and at times cold,
I want to be with you now, and then grow old,
I am a man with wise words and stories to tell,
Yet each day without you I live in hell,
Lonely is this my only fate and destiny,
I wonder through the night why your not here with me,
In my dream you are there, I run my fingers through your hair,
I kiss your lips and touch your face,
Yet I feel like I am losing ground in this race,
In my dreams we are in love, happy and free,
and the I awake and realize it's an illusion that could never be,
In my dreams, when i sleep your there,
But when I wake you are gone...it not fair,
Am I just in a dream tonight, or have I just died,
I think I may of found an angel tonight, I cant wait until she is by my side tonight.
Charles Harvey
The Mojo Girls....
I have been on this sight from time to time,
I have met a few from here but none are still mine,
You all seem crazy, but I guess that's cool in a way,
Yet each one seems to have the same ole thing to say,
You have met guys who did you dirty, and treated you wrong,
is this a broken record, or a repeated song?
Guys I implore you please treat these women right,
And could possibly be with you tonight,
Because some of them are rather good and true,
Sorry they did not see the best in you,
But wear a condom, and make sure it fits,
Dont sell your self short on those perky beautiful t---,
I find Mojo crazy time and time again,
I hope to find my true love, but more so I hope to find a good friend,
Long lonely nights and another message from a random lost soul,
Who says: "I am looking for true love," and I think hmmm
for that and Mojo is where you go?
I cant hate on you because I do the same,
Pardon me if I say baby, doll...lol I just dont remember your name,
"How much money do you make and how big is your ----",
So many times I have heard this,then I believe I have heard it all, and I start to feel sick,
Yet there are those who come along, with true sincerity
Yet it makes me wonder what the hell does this chick want from me,
LOL, JK, LMAO, TTYL, and why are we lost, novice in the art of communication,
I dream of the better days, and I need a vacation,
But I will be sure there is an internet connection where ever I may go,
Cause this bleeding heart, hopeless romantic loves his Mojo!
I hope you can find this amusing, If not bite me, I find humor in this sight, but dont put much faith into it!
Stranger Love,
Her words are like poetry to my ears,
Her purity and essence seem to dampen all of my fears,
Her face is angelic, with hair that flows like a raging waterfall,
I find myself lost in a daze, hoping she will catch me if I fall,
Romance, yes I desire to romance her with all of my heart and soul,
I want to love her with true passion that most will never know,
Kissing her lips, would make the earth stop turning,
And time would surely stand still,
I find understanding in her words,
But confusion in the way that I feel,
She is a stranger, completely unknown to me,
Yet a stranger who sees inside of my heart, her words make me fell completely free,
These are strange times, and the world has lost its way,
I hope that I am not just her game to play,
I find her intriguing my mind, and my thoughts dance in my head,
Lingering on every word that she has said,
Has my true love found me, will she soften this heart of stone,
Or else will I only again find heartbreak and be left all alone,
Whisper to me; let me hear your soft voice, speak to me your words of truth,
Tell me your thoughts, your desires; I will cherish you everyday,
And remind you of your beauty, even long after our youth,
Butterflies are in my stomach, and my knees feel completely weak,
She is the treasure that I seek,
I want to dance with her under the stars, fall in love by the moon light,
I want to hold her close, and near, and let her know she is protected, and everything will be alright,
Let me fight her demons, and combat any negative thoughts or sadness, that might cross our paths,
Let me fill her life with a warm and comforting happiness, where everyday we fall deeper in love while sharing smiles and laughs,
I know she is a stranger, but a stranger is also just a friend, that we have not has the pleasure to meet,
Yet she is the most beautiful stranger, and I would kiss her very feet,
I will leave these words for her, and hopefully they will bring to her a complete bliss,
Or else may they only fill the void until we unite, and share that first glorious kiss….
Stranger Love,
Charlie
Is she in love with me, or more in love with the chase,
Is she here to lead me to happiness,
Is she happy with the prize,
Could she be by one true love,
OR could she be my demise,
Trust me love take it slow,
Don't force love, nurture it, and let it grow,
I hold fast to the dream, the one I only hope to create,
Could you love me by the rules of destiny,
Could of I possibly found my fate,
I wonder if I have reached my destiny,
Or am I still searching for my path home,
I know this is unfamiliar territory,
and i feel lost and alone,
I know i cannot trust my heart,
For way to many times it has been broke,
Although my words are true the rise above your ears,
and disappear like smoke,
I have yet another midnight cigarette,
Wishing constantly you were one I could just forget,
The darkness seems to console my pain, or at least hide it from prying eyes,
I try and wear a smile, hide behind my disquise,
Can i taste your pain, can you see my soul,
At times i wish we were strangers,
Only to protect my heart from a new pain it yet does not know,
Midnight Cigarettes,
CHARLIE
Your eyes are like diamonds that sparkle and shine,
Lately I been praying that God may make you mine,
I love the soft touch of your kiss, upon my lips,
Your hair your smile and even your hips,
Your words cut to my heart and then linger in my mind,
No matter how far I feel I am ahead I know I am losing ground and still behind,
At the moment I am a victim of circumstance,
but still I am a gambler so I am ready to take a chance,
I know I may not be exactly perfect, but I am ready to improve,
I would walk to the ends of the earth as long as at the end there was you,
Talk is cheap, trust me I know,
Yet if ever you could love me I would never let you go,
I could never be so lucky for I have never been a lucky man,
But I feel chills up my spine each time you touch my hand,
I find my self confused at times, intrigued by the chase,
I just dont want to be your time to waste,
You are so beautiful, you truly are,
You have become my wish upon a falling star,
You are a light in the darkness, helping me find my way,
But are you the one who will leave or the one that will stay,
If this is a game then I quit, you win and I cesede,
I can only wish I may be someone who you will need,
There are always hopes and dreams and wishes that dont come true,
But i hope this is not the above, I want to be with you!
_Charlie
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